I have just learned a new word: eleutheromania - a powerful and unyielding desire for freedom.
The word sounds somewhat unsettling to me, yet it also intrigues me at the same time.
As soon as I start exploring the concept of mental liberation, the image of a soaring eagle, free from restraints and flying high in the boundless sky, immediately appears in my mind.
I can't help but wonder why I have such an intense longing for freedom? What kind of freedom am I really seeking?
These questions whirl through my mind like autumn leaves caught in a gust of wind.
Do I desire the freedom to express myself? to pursue my passions? or to make my own choices? or is it something deeper that I cannot put into words?
As I contemplate these questions, my love for adventure comes to mind.
There’s something about the unknown, the thrill of exploring new places and trying new things that fills me with an indescribable sense of joy.
And yet, a voice in the back of my mind tells me that I am not good enough, that I am not ready and I never will.
Despite my persistent efforts to improve myself, this voice refuses to be silenced entirely, which has frustrated me to the core and I cannot seem to make it stop.
I feel as though I am bound by an invisible chain that I cannot identify.
What is it that holds me back from fully embracing the call of adventure? Is it fear? doubt? insecurity? or something else entirely that I have yet to fully understand?
I recall a story I heard somewhere about a young elephant tied to a stake with a strong rope.
As it grew stronger, the elephant never broke free and accepted its captivity. In reality, it had outgrown the rope, but its belief that it was still bound hindered its potential.
Perhaps I, too, am held back by an invisible chain that no longer has power over me.
It's time to break free, but how? What can I do? How can I identify this invisible chain?
It's not an easy task, I know, but it's one I must undertake no matter what.
I've been trapped for too long in this invisible chain that hinders me from reaching my fullest potential. I can no longer let it hold me back any longer!
I admit that I still don't have the answer to my question, but I'm not completely clueless.
I know that this invisible chain inside me must be dealt with from within, not from outside.
And that's exactly what I have to take care of next, from within myself.